Bagai Sakti

Siti:
Cinta datang
Tanpa diundang
Seumur masa tercipta

M.Nasir:
Dia datang bagai sakti
Bagai menyaksi mekar
Kembang pagi
Ohhh..

Siti Nurhaliza:
Cinta datang
Dengan senyuman
Panasnya membakar mentari

M.Nasir/Siti:
Wajah yang tergambar
Tak akan terpudar
Dari hati insan yang fana ini
Fana ini

­M.Nasir:
Tak mungkin mentari
Akan terus sembunyi

Siti:
Tiada sempadan
Tak bisa kulewati

Korus:
Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku
Menanti muara sengsara
Jika ini ketentuannya

Jika ini hakikatnya
Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga
Jika ini ketentuannya
Kaukan jadi milikku jua

Aku ni takdela minat sangat ngan Siti, tapi M. Nasir tu mmg bestla, menyanyi ka belakon ka, sumer aku suka. Paling best aku tengok dia dlm Selubung la, romantik giler ngan hensemnya that is too good to be true, heh.
Anyway, Siti, walaupon aku tak minat kat dia, takdela aku meluat meyampah ke apa. Bagi aku suara dia biasa2 je, kalau masuk malaysia idol, mmg tak lepas la aku jamin. Tapi tak kisahla kalau org lain minat dia. Dia nak cari rezeki cara tu, suka ati dia. Dia pon bukannya kacau idop aku pon. Tapi aku rasa respek la kat dia sbb tak tehegeh2 mengada cam sesetengah artis yg lain, sbb tu kot dia boleh stay lama inside the intertainment industry ni. So aku tak paham kenapa ada org dengkinya punyala meluap2 sampai sanggup tulis surat layang yg power giler tu. Hmmm...biasala kan....well....org jahat camni, takdela lama sangat kot nak dapat balasan. Bagi aku, kalau betol pon la isi surat tu, pedulik apa aku, lantak p kat sitila apa dia nak buat pon, bukannya dia kacau org. Tapi kalau btol siti main hantu sumer, takkan boleh dia thn lama camni. Aku pecaya, dia boleh sampai tahap skang b'coz of the hard work.
Anyway, aku suka btol lagu bagai sakti nih. The music and the lyric, mmg ada klas. Sabtu nih baru nak p tengok PGL, hehhhe, i know, dah lambat.

Setapak melangkah dua langkah ingatan kanda
kepada dinda

Adinda bersumpah… Jikalau kekanda tidak kembali,
adinda akan menyusul kekanda.
Menginjak pada tanah yang sama, bernafas pada
udara yang sama

Layar berbelok-belok sauh dibongkar
di tempat tenang
Yang tinggal hati tak elok yang pergi hati
tak senang
Bila sampai waktu kita akan bersama

The good news, The bad news and The so so news

The good news
Anwar had been freed. Man, at last. But had to wait and see. I feel so overwhelmed with the news, it's unbelievable. He is in a quite bad shape. I hope the treatment at munich will help. He need to be in a good health to be in the battle, again. Anwar, all the best.

The bad news
My cousin had gave birth a baby girl last tuesday. But somehow, the baby had patau syndrome also known as trisomy 13, a quite rare syndrome. Something like down syndrome but patau is more serious. Doctor said the baby might live for 2-3 days. It break everybody's heart. Nurin Nadirah had a bigger heart and problem with her lung. She had pass away last saturday, after 5 days she was given birth. Alfatihah untuk Nurin Nadirah....

The so so news
A friend invite me to attend Hack In The Box conference. It's a very cool conference, with very cool speakers, but it quite, well expensive. It should. Hmmm.....

Not a news
Treo600, it cost rm2799.00. Expensive, but, with maybank ezypay, rm233.25 permonth, okla, can do la. I will own it. I WILL!!!

Graduates to be....only to be graduated

Semlm ada sekumpulan "graduates to be", 2nd year student dr UITM. Dia org ada assignment yg perlu dibuat. The assignment is each student need to prepare a report (something like that) about IT usage at every department in an organisation/company. They choose to "study" my company. So my boss pon cite2 la kat dia org, my boss yg baik nih, cite je lah. Dah cite2, these girls senyap je, takdela nak tanya2 apa2. Aku dah bengang, aku tanya balik dia org, what actually you guys looking for? Apa yg nak tau sebenarnya? To my surprise, they show us their assignment question!! Oooo my....what a stupid, lazy mengada2 nak kene makan penampar kind of students. Pastu aku cakap, ni u tunjuk soalan assignment, u all takde prepare ke nak tanya apa, takkan kita org nak jawab soalan assignment u. Then dia kuarkan plak lagi satu kertas, question yg dia org prepare for answer to include in the assignment. Hmmmm......tahle. Very passive. No wonder local graduates yg baru2 nih susah nak carik keje, camtu punya attitude. I feel very frustrated. Hmmmm.....

Happiness

I'm happy. Not sooooo happy but happy enough. I dont have lots of money, but i have enough money. I have a family of my own, no kid yet though, but yet, happy.I think happiness is just a state of mind. An attitude. If you choose to feel happy, then happiness is yours. But happiness, like other positive thing in life, u'll have to get thru some obstacles, obstacle from people who dont want to feel happy, cant feel happy and want you to be like them, anti-happiness. I dont know why such a people exist, but they're everywhere. But for those happy people, just ignore these anti-happiness people. Dont get trapped, dont get involved with them. It's a wonderful day and it will always be if we choose the day to be that way.

Time dilation

Time dilation; the twin paradox.

There are two twin brothers. On their thirtieth birthday, one of the brothers goes on a space journey in a superfast rocket that travels at 99% of the speed of light. The space traveler stays on his journey for precisely one year, whereupon he returns to Earth on his 31st birthday. On Earth, however, seven years have elapsed, so his twin brother is 37 years old at the time of his arrival. This is due to the fact that time is stretched by factor 7 at approx. 99% of the speed of light, which means that in the space traveler's reference frame, one year is equivalent to seven years on earth. Yet, time appears to have passed normally to both brothers, i.e. both of them still need five minutes to shave each morning in their respective reference frame.

Org2 melayu, aku tak paham. Since aku sekolah (aku sekolah agama BTW), i was told that, kiamat dah nak dekat dah. Banyak2 kanla amal ibadat. Hmmm....dah nak dekat tu, bape dekat? Bkn itu yg nak aku persoalkan. Kiamat dah dekat atau kiamat lambat lagi, ibadat kpd tuhan tetap kene banyak. Tapi, duit tetap kene carik. "Ala, cari duit bebanyak watpe, bknnya boleh dibawak mati". Abih? carik duit sket je? Org2 kafir/Israel/Amerika, bejuta2 duit dia org dan tengok, apa dah jadi ngan org2 Islam yg "tak payahle dok cari duit bebanyak...". What if, it's the other way round? What if, yg banyak duit sebenonya org Islam? Aku salute ngan sorang org kaya nih, dia banyak duit, pastu dia bukak kelas blaja Quran FOC kat KL. Tengok, betapa duit yg banyak penting sebenarnya. Aku takkan lagi berfikiran sempit pasal duit. Akan akan cari duit banyak2, dan aku akan guna ke jln betul. Tamak haloba tu nafsu dan sifat seseorg manusia. Duit tidak mengubah perangai manusia. Tapi bila manusia tu tak beragama.....abisla sumernya...tiada berguna....

99% of the speed of light, which means that in the space traveler's reference frame, one year is equivalent to seven years on earth

Hmmmm.....so....kiamat x lama lagi....from which reference time frame?

It's been a while.....

....but I'm speechless

Feeling Sleepy

You dont wanna wake me up......

Mungkin

Mungkin

Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama
Bukan maksud untuk membisu sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

( korus )
Mungkinkah bersama dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati nan suci
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat kini

Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama
Cinta...

- Anuar Zain

It's a nice song, a terribly nice and i love the song so much. Anuar really give the song a body and a soul. About a man, and his love, a "delayed" love, to be exact. The man is a coward though, or he is not so sure about his feeling or he is a commitment freak so he is like, let pursue our ambition first, let chase our dream first, then we'll see if we'll see each other again, then let see if we really love each other, heh. But, love is not a noun, love is a verb. You dont find love, you do love. Base on the chemistry you feel, you need to work out love ok. So when he tell you, lets wait, lets see what will happen, tell him to go to hell girl. U dont have time for man like that. Go on, find other man. U will find one, the right one, the one who want to love you and learn to love you no matter what come in between. You dont delayed love. So girl, good luck! Once i'm so desperate for a man, they flee, they hate desperate girl. Then i just lost faith in love, hmmm....i saw a queue then, but the right one, he just shine.....and now I am. Happily married.

Al Fatihah...

Alfatihah...

Last week, Tuesday evening to be precise while driving home, the good nite lullaby song came out from my handphone, so in my head its like, oooo, Abang call, mesti nak cakap he'll be late home coz he just finish meeting or the mother of all jam is happening along the nkve or there's flash flood that had block the road all together, but to get the answer, i answer the phone. No, something is wrong, something must be terribly wrong coz his tone is different, he is worry about something else which is worse than what i've thougt it could be. And he goes, "Yang, maktok nazak, Abang Ayie call tadi, dia kata nak balik mlm ni lps maghrib, so kita p tumpang dia lah". Nak pegi lepas maghrib, i still kat depan ijn, moving at like 0.00345 kmh and its already 6.40pm. Keeping myself cool, i kept on driving at that speed until i reached Jln Kuching then to Plus Highway. I reach home at 7.05pm, pergh, i have like about 1 hour before Abang Ayie come to fetch us to pack. Everything feel so not rite. Abang arrived home at 7.30. Packing, bath, Maghrib Prayer, dinner with mcd, we are ready to go at 8.15. Abang Ayie arrived at 9.00 then we depart. We arrived at Mak Njang house at 2am. Maktok is there, lying, she looks so helpless and so in pain. Mak Njang said they had people came for a yasin recital that evening. We stay until about 3am before heading to Abang's family house. At 11 am the next day, we went back to Mak Njang house. Other relatives were alredy there, MakNdak had arrive fr Kajang, Makcik had arrive fr Johore, Maktok condition is still the same. Mak Ndak, Mak Njang and Mak Cik take turn to teach maktok to "mengucap" and maktok follow. Syukur, maktok masih boleh mengucap. Then we take turn baca yasin. By lunch, maktok condition's seem to worsen. With tears, makcik ask everyone to mintak ampun dan maaf dgn maktok, so everyone take turn mintak ampun dan maaf dan cium dahi maktok. Maktok condition look the same until 6pm. Abang and Abang Ayie decide to went home. If maktok is not my granma in law, i wont leave, but man are not like woman, they feel it's ok to leave, so we leave, they thought maktok had been sick like that before and she had recover, it will be the same this time. So we leave at about 6.30pm. At about 8.20, we already reached Kuala Kangsar, Abang Ayie received call fr Mak Njang, Maktok was gone...... We turn back at KK's exit. Maktok had pass away at about 8.10, about 1 1/2 hour after we leaved. We arrived at Mak Njang house at about 10 pm. Maktok had been covered, she lying on the bed, looking so in peace. Mak Njang said that she had mengucap and said Allah all the time until the last breath. Then i go on reciting yasin, for about 4 times, no tears coming out fr my eyes. At about 12 midnite, we went to Abang's family house to get some sleep, she'll be buried at muslim cemetary at masjig gelugor tomorrow after zuhr. The next day, we went back to Mak Njang house at 8.30. Maktok is about to be bathed. Bathing ritual was done at the back of Mak Njang's house. Everything's ready by 11.30. We went to masjid gelugor. By 3.00 pm, maktok was sent to see Allah. Still not even a drop of tears came down my cheeck. We went home at 5pm. So, the loving maktok was gone. She was a very nice granma in law. I remember the time we cook together with other in law. I remember the first time we met, she look at me with an approving eyes and i love her so much. Last nite, Abang had make an omelette, it's a bit hard, i'm about to tell him that to make an omelette softer, he need to put a little bit water, but i cant said that. It make me feel so said, i'm thinking of maktok, after dinner, i cry in the bathroom, the first time i cry after maktok had gone. The tip on how to make an omelette softer was given by her. Then i take wudu' then after Isya' prayer, i recite the Al Quran. I will never see her again. Al Fatihah.....

Luck?

Sikin kata, kalau tak try, u dont know your luck. Kalau try barule tau ada luck ke takde luck. Tapi kadang2 kita mmg sengaja tanak try. Takot tak dapat apa yg kita nak sbb bila kita try something, kita ada hope utk dapat something fr apa yg kita try tu. Kalau tak try, dah konfem dah tak dapat. Kalau try blm tentu. Tapi kalau tak try, camne? No pain no gain. Tapi sblm try apa2 pon, make sure ada plan. Ada plan to make it happen, ada plan on how to react when kita dapat, ada plan utk kalau tak dapat. Pk panjang. Jgn main hentam keromo je. Jgn main harap, kalau ada adala, kalau dah ditakdirkan dapatla. NO SUCH THING OK! Setengah org, dia sangka it is very islamic to think that we can just doa, minum air penawar dr ustaz, u know such thing to get what we want, to cure our penyakit. If that is so islamic, apasal la agaknya Tuhan bagi kita kepala otak? Kalau kepala otak tu tak digunakan, apala guna dia? Nasib sesuatu bangsa, bangsa tu sendiri yg tentukan. Setiap penyakit ada ubatnya. Beribadat seolah2 akan mati esok, keje seolah2 akan hidup selama2nya. Tengok. Betapa hidup ni kene pakai otak. Camne nak ubah mentality org melayu yg sikit2 carik bomoh, sikit2 minta air jampi kat ustaz? Camne? I'm so modern and open minded and i cant accept those bullshit. Dont tell me utk pegi jumpa pakar resdung kg utkperasap idung, dont tell me to jumpa bomoh and dont tell me to jumpa ustaz minta air jampi/penawar. And dont even tell me that i cannot plan my pregnancies, dont tell me anak akan beri rezeki kat u. Branak dulu, nanti rezeki dtg, hey, that's bullshit ok. Cari duit, kumpul duit dulu, pastu baru branak, that's the way. That is the RIGHT WAY. I'm stubborn, i dont care of anything, heh. Any comment?

Setelah sekian lama...

Last week pegi buat ic dengan sikin, fae, leeza n julia. We really enjoy ourselves, exchange stories, heheheheh. Hmmmm what a wonderful time. Oooops, need to go home, have dinner to attend tonite, though not my cup of tea, i have to, lately politicking is very important, well u know, had to take care of my future, coz ada org busuk hati. Ok, chiow. Hopefully esok boleh cite panjang bout the wonderful times with those ex-brisbanette.